So Excited

Written December 2, 2009

you have my full attention,
undivided,
as well as all other aspects of me,
they're all provided..
cuz you got my soul
SO excited..
there was a vacant space in my heart,
for my other half,
my missing part,
..but you are now invited
to dwell and occupy it
for as long as its desired,
by you..
see, Im hopin that I dont have to,
but Im willin to play the fool..
if thats what I need to do
to get the kind of knowledge and experience
that one can not attain thru contemporary skool..
I am askin you to be my Luv,..
Guru,
my teacher..
and I will gladly be your tool..
to cut away the "Old ME"
until the "New ME" shines thru..
as a reflection of you..
..a Divine Being..
lets live and be one with God,
so that besides ourselves,
our entire world only encompasses two..
and for I,
that is "He" and you..
"He", as my Divine Creator
and you, as my King..
easily recognized as royalty,
even without the adornments and rings,
crowns and such things,
that only a superficial woman would fiend..
I jus hope to be the one worthy enough to be called your Queen,..
worthy enough to bear you seed..
for I wish to be the embodiment of ALL that you need..
the food from which you feed,
the air from which you breathe,
the knowledge from which you read,
and the accomplice in your sexual greed,..
I will never leave..
I will always follow,
as long as you lead..
cuz you got my soul
SO excited..
and I am willing
to do anything
to maintain that which the Divine has provided,
to me..

Oral Fix

Written November 29, 2009

**HIGHLY Sexual Content, Please Be Advised**
lol



oh,..the things I would do
jus to get the smallest taste of you,
taste of new
lyfe from your loins
taste of you cumin..!!
ooh..!!
let me be the one to
relieve that tension for you
cuz I can tell you the type that likes to be catered to
its been long overdue
Im the type
that'll get you right
have you wonderin
y the fuck I was EVER missin
from your life
makin ya toes curl
while my tongue takes flight
and we jus gettin started,luv..
cuz I can do this shit here, ALL nite
got you makin sounds like..
"..ooh wee..!!
..DAMN, girl..!!
where the fuck you learn THAT shit from..!!?
cuz you dont even seem like
the "freaky type" of girl..!!"
oh,..but I am,bay..
so whateva pleases you
most definitely pleases me
I got an oral fixation..
and you jus became the subject
of my self-therapy,
let me give you a session,
a lesson in the sexual progression
of my top notch head game
before the incredible sexin',
lick the tip
enjoi the shit
using my tongue to spell out the letters
of the alphabet
taste of pre-cum,
swallow it,
but I know there's more where that came from..
mami jus gotta work the shit to get to it..
so let me lather you up,
before I deep throat the dick..
know I hit an incredible stride
cuz thats when he gets to callin me "Bitch..!!"
feelins of ecstasy,
had to take a seat..
for no longer could he stand it
then cums my favorite part,
cuz it leaves us both SO fuckin orgasmic..!!
So fuckin volcanic..!!
lava hot and organic
breaks through the surface in streams,
cumin from the depths of his luv pit,
how I marvel in it,
was raised with proper etiquette
so now, Im such a fuckin lady
that I swallow,
cuz I was taught that REAL ladies never spit..!!
..and its funny how that applies to dick..!!
so please, by all mean, let me know
when you're free and available
cuz I would luv for you to supply me
with my Oral Fix..!

King

Written November 9, 2009

there's one particular person
that, from my heart,
I wanted to get a verse in
muscles achy, cause on him
Im diggin
so deep..
he's the type Id love
to be submerged in
got me feelin
mentally,
like a virgin
complex ideologies
got my mind
feelin somethin like a whirlwind
but he's more than..
the average scholar
with a scroll and a pen
street philosophy
with the etiquette and manner
of a Enlightened Gentleman
respected in the hood
so, in turn,
he respects them
Swagg cup,
filled up
in fact it runneth over,
over the King's lips, past his shoulders
got him damp from the Waist Up
got me damp from the waist down
so much sex appeal...,
that if he shared it,
there would be enough to go 'round
ina trance by his charm
I sit, patiently, tied up
without alarm
like a talented magician,
he put me under his spell
leavin me spellbound
wishin he was here now..
not in the Empire State,
Bison town
but it is what it is..
I know one day
it'll definitely go down
and with that thought,
I smile
hopin that in the meanwhile,
despite the distance,
our friendship will be worth enough
to go the extra mile

An Ode to the Village

Written November 8, 2009

so many fine men
FINE MEN!!,
I see
lookin good
talkin good
sayin all the right words
to me
eyes glued
cause seein a man
eloquently communicate w/ words
is a beautiful sight to see
...at least to me
the physical feels good
but Id rather be fucked
intellectually
take me to the depths
til ya knowledge flows free
take me to the heights
so into ya mind,
I see
smell, touch, taste
the whole of your mentality
aiming high
keepin my
eyes to the sky
transfixed
watchin that incredible Sparrow fly
beautiful use of words
nouns, adjectives, and adverbs
speakin to my feminine sensibilities
til somethin deep inside me stirs
deep inside me purrs
beautiful paintings,
painted jus wit words
got me lookin so deep into the picture
that the picture blurs
which is more than I deserve
Im here to get betta
Im jus a novice
so I observe
watch and listen
decipherin the depictions
followin,..but sometimes missin
the green light,
gettin lost beyond the curve
and its funny
cause this is jus off the shit
yall got in reserve..!!
but Im good
blessed that this community flourishes
so that I, one day, could
get betta, more cleva
w/out bein misunderstood
so fellas..,
AND queens,
ALL my beautiful black bellas
I appreciate ya skills
cause ya words are real
and the effect of their impact is beyond measure
so if you'll have me
it would be my absolute pleasure..
to call yall my case workers
this beautiful art of speech
serve as my work release
and have the Artist Village be my self imposed tether

Hater

Written November 4, 2009

who the fuck
are you to me,
supposedly,
that you should feel
your opinion is royalty
like I have to be subjected
to your view of me
what I do
and who I be
I'd never be a prisoner to your thoughts
but even if I was,
I'd still have the lock and key
sorry, Hater..
you're beyond your jurisdiction
there's a line of boundary
that you can't cross
cause beyond that point
you have no authority
my personal Constitution
forces you to seek retribution,
cause, over your words,
it exercises power and seniority
it allows me the right
to tell you anything you say
on this, or any other day
is invalid, your words are fake
jus like an allegory
you might as well be
in the same category
as implants, Florida votes
and a Van Gogh forgery
Im as real as it gets,
and for all those who can recoginize real,
Im sure you can recoginize this
Im so secure with myself
even to my haters
Im generous
and for a limited time,
Im givin out gift baskets of six
jus in time for Christmas
cause I could give a shit,
2 fucks, and 3 dicks
'bout what them haters spit
real talk
only OTHER haters validate they words
as legit
I dont have the energy,
nor the time to nitpick
Im too focused on me and mine
tryin to get the next thing
crossed off my "To Do" list
haters are jus ambiguous misfits
who hate that all of their pursuits
always seem to end up fruitless
hate to see 100% given
by some1 who's ambitious
so they try to take away
by addin their negative 2 cents
nothin to focus on in their own lives
so they focus in on "dis bitch"
and Im happy to oblige
Im glad I can temporarily give their lives some purpose
they have a mind to "mind" me
so I let them mind they bitness
from time to time
every1 needs alil reassurance
so when they hate on me
I jus take it as an indication
that it's evident to see,
Im on top of my game
like last name: Bryant,
first name: Kobe
and im gonna continue to go hard
that's jus my nature
ask any1 who knows me
so next time you out, feelin and lookin good
tryna enjoy the supposedly "grown & sexy" environment
and you catch word of them haters doin what they do,
talkin a whole bunch of nonsense
jus go up to them and tell them "Thanx..!!"
cause as they speak, they're jus boostin ya confidence
outta all those fine individuals there
you MUST be the finest..!!
think about it..!!?!
there has to be some sorta eliminational process
...with there bein a gazillion people there
and them personally chosin YOU as their target audience
where ever you go, haters are in the crowd
and usually they're the most prominent
but take it as good news,
them hatin on you..
jus means they're dissatisfied wit their OWN lives
and secretly admire what you do
stay focused and tru to you
keep it pushin, wit ya foot on the pedal
chuggin' up the duece
cause haters gonna hate, regardless..
not only jus 'cause you "fire"
but also jus ' cause they cant keep up wit you

Self Doubt (Bullshit)

Written July 6, 2009

Im only as good
as my last written letter
and when letters and words are your destiny
theres no room for error
cause that error could very well
be your lyfe long tether
and like the song says,
for "Always and Forever"
I know that I could be
SO much better
but the parody
of my reality
is that this creativity
is my only shelter
from myself,
the world,..
and the bullshit
that lurks in all places
industrial and rural
SO much bullshit
ya girl
cant stand it...
so much achin' in my legs
that I gotta sit
and while Im sittin
I gets to thinkin...
"can I ever rise above it..?"
negatively thinkin
my patience starts to wear thin
cause Im occupied,
growin frustrated,
wonderin
if all my newly harvested potential's prematurely peakin
not knowin
I jus dived head first into the bullshit I cant stand
self DOUBT begins to set in
so I start reachin,
disruptin the flow,
for higher plateaus
not watchin where my foot goes
solid ground is where I hoped to land
but ended up in lyrical quicksand
my creativity is strugglin
I feel myself sinkin
into obscurity
before any1 ever knows me
before I ever begin
(shakes head)
shoulda never started reachin
greatness would eventually come
but who wants to wait through the transition
such a terrible feelin
when the big fish lives in the ocean all her lyfe
then suddenly cant swim
oxygen low
panic striken
tight chest feelin
water in her lungs
drownin
I know it may sound like Im submerged
in the deep end
but thats what can happen
when, an extreme moment of doubt,
you experience
it only came to visit
but ya mental house kept it locked in
and since you gave it the power
its gonna kill ya dreams
like you breathed in a toxin

Ulterior Moive

Written July 5, 2009

I was SO tempted
Lord knows I was
but stayed tru to self
despite the buzz
despite the luv
feed off the chemistry
of old romantic energy
hopin you'd get a taste
of my sexual remedy
the cure to the monotony
of your virus version
of monogamy
hindsight
they say
is 20/20
and Id have to agree
cause now
through the bullshit
I can clearly see
up
she couldnt get it
so you come to me
but you know it wont be
THAT easy
so, plain and outright
you couldnt be
cause you knew if you posed the question
what my answer
would surely be
so you take your time
kept your eyes on me
waitin for jus the right
opportunity
when Im all smiles
and feelin free
like the beloved queen of
Faded City
like "this gonna be
jus TOO easy
I got this, homie..
lock and key"
and here I am
silly me
thinkin I got you
and you got me
worried bout these other niggas
not the one WITH me
like I said
silly me
fuck base one and two
you goin straight for three
through the smoke and haze
I begin to see
what everyone else watchin
like TV
my ex old man
tryna fuck wit me
tryna beat it like MJ
R.I.P
and its not helpin
that im feelin so crazy
from the weed and 'Tron
and my eyes heavy
plus he sayin all the right thangs
to saturate the putang
got me thinkin bout the last time
he gave me dope brain
....!!
(...psss...psss...)
but Im hearin somethin tell me
lets not get crazy
MD is bein shady
he went about it
THIS way!!??!!
then he got a lady
who everybody say kool
plus they got a baby
my head geats to clearin
and my buzz starts to
wear thin
perfect timin
cause the nigga almost had his dick in
Im sayin
"WHAT THE FUCK!!!"
cause reality
is sickenin'
niggas ALWAYS wanna talk
but never wanna be
"jus friends"